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Yoyo Guys! (Edit: Brought Jerome's Handy Advice Part 1 here for easier reading)

Suddenly got some motivation to write while chatting with Yong Ming :D Not sure why, but while, better make use of it before its gone…

Tonight, I decided to do a follow up on my “Jerome’s Handy Advice” post. Enjoy~

Its odd, how our view of human destiny changes over the course of a lifetime. In youth, we believe what he young believe, that life is a choice.

We stand before a hundred doors, choose to enter one, where we’re faced with a hundred more and then choose again. We choose not just what we’ll do, but who we’ll be. Perhaps the sound of all those doors swinging shut behind us each time we select this one or that should trouble us, but it doesn’t. Nor does the fact that the doors are often identical and even lead , in some cases, to the exact some place.

Occasionally, a door is locked, but no matters, since so many others remain available. The distinct possibility that choice itself may be an illusion is something we disregard, because we’re curious to know what’s behind that door, the one we hope will lead us to the very heart of the mystery.

Even in the face of mounting evidence to the contrary, we remain confident that when we emerge, with all our choosing done, we’ll have found not just our destination, but also its meaning.

The young sees life this way, front to back, their eyes to the telescope that anxiously scans the infinite sky and its myriad possibilities~

Religion, seducing us with free will while warning us of our responsibility, reinforces youth’s need to see itself at the dramatic center, saying yes to this and no to that, against the backdrop of a great moral reckoning.

But at some point, all that changes. Doubt, born of disappointment and repetition, replaces curiously, In our weariness we begin to sense the truth, that more doors have closed behind than remain ahead, and for the first time, we’re tempted to swing that telescope around and peer at the world through the wrong end – though who can say its wrong? How different things can look then!

Larger patterns emerge, individual decisions receding into insignificance. To see a life back to front, as everyone begins in middle age, is to strip it of its mystery and wrap it in inevitability, drama’s enemy

The man I’ve become, the life I’ve lived, what are these but dominoes that fall not as I would have them but simply as they must.

That’s for all for this segment of my handy advice (Will continue if I ever feel like it.)

Hi!

So yeah, finally someone tags :D Haven’t really got the motivation nowadays but when I saw all the tags, it somehow liven my spirits and got me started on this post.

As we all know, valentines’ day has passed and while, I’m not the kind who goes on a date or anything, and painful enough, I’m dateless =( Yet on that day, we still have to go to school for our Meet-the-parents session.

Had to report to school at 7am as I had prefect duty and got to skip band :D It was getting boring fast, walking around and just showing the parents the way to the hall, but at least I had Yi Tian and Xiao wei to talk to.

It was around 7.50 when I saw Jun Rong. I went to him and directed him to the hall as he was looking pretty blur himself. We chatted for a while and I handed him over to my classmates but on the way, both of us kinda tripped over the fan =.=, wire, that is… And you bet it was embarrassing, good thing there wasn’t many people around then.

As the hall started filling up, I too have to go for the talk as well, so I sat in around 8.30 and the talk began. Tedious as always, as the same points have been reiterated many many times, its not like I have a choice… It ended around 10 and not long after that, the 2nd session of my prefect duty started and needless to say, I was inside.

Stuck around just like what I did for the 1st session but this time, I could skip the talk so I basically, walked around the whole school to waste time… Though going for the talk would have been more productive… I returned later on, around 12pm, when I found out that the talk wasn’t over yet but instead, it has been talking over by Yee Jing and another guy. ‘

Both of them were, formerly, swiss students :D They lectured about how JC life is and some tips on how to manage time etc. I was wondering, myself, why they hadn’t arrive earlier to give us their talk… Kinda biased but I still got to hear it xD

I was initially planning to go home but chanced upon Kenny on the way. They were planning to go celebrate Jun Rong’s birthday, which coincidentally fell on Valentines’ day, ironically, he isn’t very romantic =.=

Kenny and the rest decided to watch a movie in Jurong Point but for some reason, Jun Rong couldn’t come and we were left alone in Jurong Point to think of something to do. Since everyone’s stomach was grumbling, we went to Pizza hut to satisfy ourselves first, the ten of us – Me, Kenny, Hilda, Kaiqi, Huiyun, Jackie, Tian Yi, Chun ai, Fang lian and Keith

So yeah and on the way, we managed to convince Jasper to come =) He like came to Pizza hut, ate 2 slices of pizza and had to pay the bill for us=.= When I like ate 3 and didn’t have to take out my wallet… :D I kinda feel sad for him…

We went to the arcade afterwards to watch Kenny and the rest play some stupid “basketball” game, which I find an utter waste of time and money when you can actually go down to a basketball court and play the real thing yourself… Good Job arcades, swindling us, young kids (I think I’m intelligent enough not to indulge in them…)

Kenny and the rest were playing and it just so happen, Jasper wanted to go watch a movie and unfortunately, it was getting late and some of us couldn’t watch… Only a few remain namely – Me, Kenny, Jasper, Jackie, Tian yi, Chunai and Hilda. We wanted to watch “Slum Dog millionaire” but it was NC 16… DOES IT NOT LOOK LIKE WE”RE MATURE ENOUGH! DAMN TICKETING LADY! So we fell back on our second choice, “The Curious Case of Benjamin Buttons”, sadly, it was full… and so came our third choice, “Valkyrie”. Cheesy name for a movie that kinda has nothing to do with it=.= It is about Adolf Hitler etc.~

So went through that and we came out around 8.30. Stuck around for a while, and I was the first to go home. The rest actually wanted to go down to Lot 1 and have their supper, crazy fellows…

Anyways, what initially, was gonna be another dateless valentine actually turned out pretty fine :D~

Hi guys!

Been a while since I blogged ehh…

My looks has always been the thing that gives me my confidence and without it, I’m just a normal student or in other words (Confident less). I’ll talk a little bit more about my past :D

When I was in primary school, I use to be the quiet little fat boy :D who while, didn’t have much self esteem at all. When it came to presentation, if there was even any, I would be like the one hiding behind and letting my friends do all the work.

There was a leap of self-confidence from primary 4 to primary 5 where I became a prefect. As a prefect, we didn’t really have to do much actually, as compared to secondary school, we just slacked around and when we had to do our duty I would slack off to a place where no one can see me, accompanied with a friend of course, so that I can escape the old morning ritual. I was still pretty fat just so you know xD

My size didn’t bother me one bit. I was able to make friends and actually became one of the most well known person in my school :D

My success was due to my personality. I made friends with everyone, talked to almost everyone in the school, even those quiet ones and while I garnered up lots of support from all of them when I ran for head prefect. Sadly it didn’t go too well but I was still the got the position as the assistant head prefect.

See a lot of people are always so pressured by their peers that they do the stuff that they do just to fit in and be “normal”, in other words – peer-pressure. Many a times, we rely a lot of our friends, peers, to help out when we’re in need of them but how many actually bother to take time off and waste effort over your needs, over our needs? Are those really friends we can count on?

Making good friends is a small step you can, or must take, to be a likeable person :D and while keeping them too. You must be agreeable to what your friends partake but while… there’re its limits.

Anyways, back to the day I lost my confidence… I never expected it to come so fast, and so suddenly=.=… I knew it was gonna come one day or another but why does it have to be like kinda at a weird time and while in a weird way…

It all started during band (Like Flashback~~~).

“Hey when is band starting?” I asked Kenny

“Dunnoe leh…” Replied Kenny.

Lol… wonder why I even bother writing like that=.= so yeah mr chew was talking to the sec 1s about their expectations and what they may expect out from band. Our promotional video was aired once again by Mr chew and I get to watch it for the second time :D I still get goose bumps even after watching it for the second time.

Around 3, we were finally called to fall in where we meet Paul once again for our drill session. Don’t really wanna go in detail about this whole thing or else its gonna be way too long to read=.=

We were given 100+ pushup at a certain point of the session cause of our uniforms and for being late, by 12 secs, solely… We did like 60 straight and had to hold in push up position for 2 minutes more! That is ,sadly, way beyond my limits already. As I was struggling to keep in that position, blood rushes to my head and stuff and while my head was pretty red, embarrassing but while it’s the truth. And after that, some of my friends were asking me what happened to my face? I was confused and couldn’t really care much about it anymore because I was far too tired…

When adc precourse was over, I went back to band where more and more people started asking me about my face… So I went to the toilet and got the shock of my life, like literally… I was stunned for like a good 5 secs before I realize how bad a condition my face was in… I wore that face all the way from band back home…

At home, I told everyone about my face, which I realized I didn’t have to, and my parents was like “aiya, not need see doctor de la” at me=.= I took their words for it and went to back, hoping that some cream will help.

I found out, the next morning, that none of everything has helped – my sleep, the cream and my parents advice. I had to wear that face throughout the whole day, in school, during enrichment and back home…

My confidence was shattered and I really didn’t have the face to talk to any of my friends anymore, kinda exaggerated but the truth yeah. I really wanted to just hide someone at home where no one can see me, and maybe watch some games and play some dota :D (Basically slack) but I while… I couldn’t.

Enrichment didn’t make me feel better one bit at all. Had to cover my face through he whole thing… and while with my confidence gone I was pretty much quiet the whole time, didn’t wanna reply yong ming and stuff and tried my best to be as inconspicuous as possible.

My face is probably gonna be with me for a few days, or even weeks if its that bad… So you guys have to bear with it.

As for me, I’ll just have to be happy with who I am :D (And of course, with my face xD)

Hi Guys!

So yeah… I know, its been a while since I’ve blogged ehh and in that period, my blog has “died”… At least theres that David Santos guy commenting xD

CNY is here! And if you’re thinking that I’ll be going out and visiting relatives and stuff, you’re horribly wrong; all my relatives live in Malaysia =(~ Kinda sad but yeah I’m getting use to it, seeing people dressed up so nicely for visiting, receiving those hong baos and stuff… How I wish I were them.

There’s also the CNY decoration contest going on in our school. Our class, more like Yongming and his gang, had decided to leave all the work to Qin Ze. Very mean thing to do… but in the end, they changed their minds and put up the decorations… and even stayed for the judging, which I heard took place around 4pm=.=

The decorations were all very cute – The 12 zodiacs were drawn, cut and pasted on the back of our class, the background was layered with red paper, and of course a lot of other designs.

Initially, I thought we wouldn’t have won. Looking at 2T1’s design it furthers assure that thought but to come to think of it, all their lightings and stuff really doesn’t fit into the “CNY” theme at all but I was proved wrong when they won 1st prize for the lower secondary category. We were 3rd, not bad…

2nd place was taken by 1e5, which I think deserved it and them being my orientation group is a plus plus :D Not to be biased or anything…

CNY celebration was really boring… Like how the “sing-a-long” session turned into an “only students” sing session, the teachers just refuse to sing =(… Plus, the song was kinda hard to keep track out, the lyrics didn’t help at all cause it just kept repeating the same thing over and over again=.=

Before that, 2 malay teachers sang one of Wang Li Hong’s songs, which I thoroughly enjoyed despite the fact that I hardly listen to Chinese songs… They sang it pretty well, especially the malay teacher. ( Sorry, forgot your name )

Everything ended off at around 12 and I went home afterwards…

Kinda sad how I don’t visit my primary school anymore… I haven’t been keeping in touch with my primary school friends as well… Occasionally, I still do talk to one of my closer friend “Shaffan” but that’s about it=( Hoping to visit my primary school during teacher’s day :D

The winds blows, brushing through its surrounding ever so effortless and producing such magnificent sounds. The wind, the air supply. The surrounding, its instruments.

Hihi

So yeah guys, I’ve finally decided to update my blog and theres like so many things for me to update on =.= Its just that I’m too lazy and stuff… For all you people who’ve been keeping track with all the things I’m doing, I’ve went through two orientation – CCA orientation and Sec 1s orientation.

Please don’t expect me to write about both of them… Its just too much for me to handle =(~ So hey, I’ll just give a brief write-up about them

Sec 1s Orientation
So like yeah… I was one of the sec 1 orientation group leader of “Mariners”, 1e5. To be honest, they were probably one of the most quiet groups I have encountered… I tried everything I could to make them talk and stuff but most of them are futile.

Even with 2 other people helping me, Ye Hua and Yi Tian, everything still boiled down to me : I had to do the motivation, i had to brief them on everything and yeah, I did all the hard stuff while Yi Tian just hid behind the scene… I can see Ye Hua trying but still, I did the most work.

Enough about them, lets talk a bit about my group. Like I’ve mentioned earlier, they are really quiet. Its expected I guess but even on the 2nd and 3rd day!? I see the other groups talking back to their leaders… Mine just stays so obedient which is while, a good thing I guess but when it comes to all the inter-class stuff, cheering/games, it doesn’t really help at all.

With me whining and worrying about the final performance, I see no anxiety on the faces of my 2 partners, maybe Ye Hua a little, but still, Bill manages come up with an awesome cheers! It goes something like this:
We got a fever, it’s hot & it can’t be stop [×2]
We got a nanny nanny poo poo, & it can’t be stop [×2)
We got a fever & its hotttt… …
Mariners, Mariners, never say no
Just be bold & strive for gold
Crush the lot, make them sob, let them see how Mariners rock!

Shine the spotlight, its burning bright
Let them see how Mariners fight
Fight to the end with all our might
Mariners, Mariners, fight, fight, fight

We are the best (clap) [×2]
We are the best among the rest
We are here to show our power
We are the best among the rest

And we go boom dynamite [×2]
And we go titititi boom dynamite
And we go boom dynamite [×2]
And we go titititi boom dynamite
And we go boom dynamite [x2]
And we go titititi boom dynamite
Pretty neat eh? I like it as well =) Credit goes to Bill for his AWESOME cheer!

We thought everything was done but no, we were proved wrong when Chang Feng demanded a skit/dance/song from all the groups. We (Ye Hua and me) went back to discuss about the skit, we’ve decided on that. Yi Tian never seem to help out when we need him, its like everytime its something important, he runs away and expects someone to do it for him=.= I really dislike people like that but anyways, the both of us came up with something and we brought it back to orientation the very next day.

We briefed them on how the how skit is going on and we then choose the students required for the roles. Not one girl volunteered themselves… But, at least I can see some of them trying.

It was excruciating just trying to get everyone to cooperate with me and to cheer louder… Even with Elanor and Nisa helping me, they’re motivations just didn’t quite get to them. I knew no one else can help me anymore, it was all up to me.

The final preparation came and boy was I worried. Half the time I’m just praying for them to cheer louder… We were given about 30 minutes to run through the whole procedure with them and pretty much get them ready for the performance. The girls didn’t seem to be affected by the atmosphere and they just continue to emo at their little “corner”.

Time was running out and I knew I only have one shot in getting every right and before I knew it, it was our turn to perform!

Everyone was hiding at the back and I had to beg them just to get a little closer to the audience… Bill then started off the cheer when everyone was ready (Props to him again) and soon every joined in. It was a little soft, still…

The cheer was soon over and it is now time the skit. Oh yeah I so forgot to tell you guys about what the skit’s about… Sorry~ Anyways, the skit is suppose to be about baseball (It was fitting for the theme as well). Two teams, Mariners and “team”, were in the hit of the game and Mariners are just down by one point, you guys should know how it goes…

Back to reality. The people got to their positions and the commentator started to while.. comment~ The two commentator did a pretty BAD job btw… I really wanted to take over when the stumbled but I knew I shouldn’t.

It was finally OVER! We got off the stage and the performance continued.

After the performance, it was prize presentation. I knew I wouldn’t be one of the top 3s and once again I was proved wrong (Damn… I’m always wrong). I got surprised when we weren’t the btm 4 :D and as we waited for the first 4 to be announced, I braced myself.

The 4th place was announced and… It wasn’t us! I heaved a huge sigh of relief as my nerve began to clam down :D It turned about we got 3rd =) Not bad not bad~

As I looked back at the first day of orientation, my group has changed a lot. The bond between us may be ephemeral but we know, no matter how quiet the girls are, no matter how hard the guys try, the once group has become one of the past and they’ve become a class

If you ask me if I ever regretted taking up this duty, my answer will be “no”

CCA Orientation
K im too lazy to write about it but I assume you guess should know how it went

Like hi~

As many of you don’t know who Alfred is, I’ll give a little introduction about him.

Alfred, as some may know him, is a clarinet player from band and a very talented one in fact. He is one of my principal players and will be (hopefully) playing an important role in our SYF next year. He plays this solo in REMOVED and without him, we’re pretty much screwed unless someone from the clarinet section can miraculously master it…

It just so happens he got into a fight today with 2 of our old boys/girls, that’s what we call it, and while it got pretty serious with him saying that he’ll step off. I mean yeah sure, step off for all we care, but this is different, he’s actually pretty important in band and without him, we may not be able to do very well in the upcoming SYF.

So it went something like this...

We were going through “Right Now”, apparently, a not very appealing piece for us. Alfred had suggested we wait for Seiyan and Andy to arrive before we start playing as there is a solo for them. This got onto the nerves one of our old girls, if you guys wanna know, Elizabeth. She retorted saying how that is was doing the band no good and about how it was unfair for us.

Alfred had to oblige and so, started to go through the piece with us but not before showing a little “attitude”. At a certain point, the cornet section got stuck at a bar and thus, Alfred repeated it over and over again and yet, the cornet section couldn’t clear it. Alfred was frustrated and decided, for the band, to go down and practise their marching.

Elizabeth, and a friend of hers from the saxophone section, heard this and pretty much let Alfred taste his own medicine… saying how going through “Right Now” was on Mr Chew’s list and also questioning Alfred of his conducting skill’s. Alfred, of course, wasn’t gonna just give in without a fight, he talked back once more and got shut-ed down by her friend while Elizabeth continues to pummel back with more words. Alfred, still unrelenting, argued back again but still, we all knew who won the fight – Elizabeth.

Ho sin, continued the piece with us while Alfred, who must be a little shamed by Elizabeth, “steps down” like what she had told him to do. He throws a little tantrum and while… still stuck around when we went through the other pieces and later, the March practice.

Guess it was just a fight but who knows? He may really have stepped down!?

Hi all!

Yes yes, I know… It’s been a while, hasn’t it? Since I have last written. Most of the time, I find myself too lazy and while just procrastinating way too much. Sometimes, I just gotta relax =)~

So, as everyone already know, the school holidays are ending. Sad isn’t it, how we all just wanna stay home and watch tv/play computer games etc. but is that actually good for us?... Going to school, for one, can mean a lot to others-to most of us, it just means waking up early in the morning, getting it over and done with till afternoon, where we’ll probably go home and watch some tv, do homework. For others, it’s a chance to break free from all the bore and come out from their little cage and socialize with others. To me, school is both a really fun place and sometimes, a very boring and depressing place.

There are always days when we wake up, feeling refreshed, so ready to start the day and there are also days when we find it freaking hard just to get ourselves off the bed. Those are days when we gotta tell ourselves, “Stop being lazy and get up!” go get urself a refreshing shower and, if theres time left, go watch some tv.

There are also days that you just don’t want to go to school at all as you probably already know that something bad is gonna happen to you. Once in a while, we’ll be met with these days where everything we do is wrong and when we just feel like throwing in the towel.

One of these days, you’ll probably be experiencing them but never give up, never. If you’re frustrating over a question, give yourself a break and later, return to it (Remember to return to it…). If you’re having a bad day, just get over it. If you know you’re gonna get scolded in school then find a way to prevent it or just face it like a MAN! xD

That’s all for today’s post, pretty short but while… that’s all I wanna I write :D